Author Archives: William Lehman

My passions in life are my family, my relationship with God, creativity and expressionism. My belief is that all true creativity comes from the Creator first and foremost.

It all hinges on faith.

I was quite challenged by the message today.  I’ll post the Audio of the sermon on the church website when they get it to me and link to it ( link goes here).

To tell the truth I look forward to listening to it again myself… but I’ll try to sum up what I got out of the sermon today that challenged me.

  • It’s the overflow of our faith which is the outpouring of worship.
  • Faith gives it’s best.
  • Faith is how we know we are saved.
  • Faith calls us to do things that look strange to others who don’t have faith.

I am sure I am not quite getting all the points that were listed, but what it comes down to is this.  Everything in the Christian life comes down to an issue of faith.  From what we give of our time, ourselves and our income to how we live on a daily basis.  Without faith, it’s just words and works.  Neither of which will save us.  Faith is how we understand.  Not knowledge.  Not more study.  More faith.

I have a friend who likes to study things and devise theories on how God works.  But he is quite lost.  I don’t think he knows it either.  He knows a lot of God.  He is a pastor even.  But deep down it seems he has pushed faith aside for ideologies, philosophies, and mere spirituality.

I am challenged by this because it means that all the Bible Study in the world won’t get me closer to God unless it comes from a genuine faith that God will meet me when I come to Him.

I find that a scary proposition actually, but also quite freeing.  Faith must come first.

Hebrews 11, Genesis 4

Surrender

Sometimes I wish I had lived as a monk in the early Catholic church. The idea of penance seems easier than that of forgiveness at times. Probably because it’s something that I have to do. It’s something that I could take into my own hands and perform at will. Even the idea of going into a confessional booth and sharing my sins with some guy with a white collar seems easier than kneeling in total supplication to the Creator of the universe. In the Old Testament, the priest could go on your behalf before God. Buying a goat and taking it to the temple doesn’t seem hard either. But when the veil is torn and there is nothing between God and me but my sin… it makes my sin the culprit, but not just my sin, me. Our will is what separates us from God.
Then Jesus goes and takes all that sin upon Himself. Those thoughts I am so ashamed of thinking, those images that are burned in my brain, those words that I can’t take back all belong to the blameless spotless lamb of God. God took Himself and was made manifest in flesh for us and allowed us to take the very standard of perfection and drown it in the filth and mire of our deliberate disobedience of His will.

His will.

Our will.

That’s all it really comes down to. So when we pray those words “Not my will, but thine… on earth as it is in Heaven” is a prayer that encompasses the heart of repentance. To turn away and become infatuated with what God’s will is rather than our own. This is the great denial. This is the catch. This is where we die and Christ lives…

…if we let Him.

The Journal

If I were to die today, I feel that most of my life might have been in vain. I am ashamed to say that if I were to stand before God’s throne right now I would have no other thought other than I did not live a life worthy of the name of Jesus Christ. This isn’t how I want to go out though. I don’t want to stand before God with the knowledge that I could have done more but didn’t.  I know that there are a lot of other Christians “out there” who feel the same way and want more.

So I am beginning something new. I don’t want to be the same old me anymore. “Me” doesn’t work. God does.

Part of the point of this is complete brutal honesty about where I am and where God takes me over the course of the next six months. Maybe this journey can be helpful to someone else too. I know that I am led to begin the adventure to real transformation and for now that is my only goal. To be transformed by a real and authentic relationship with Jesus Christ.

The greatest gift you can give to the world is your own intimacy with Jesus Christ.

Plan B: Digging In and Branching Out

I’ve been busy today working on a client/friend’s website and some marketing materials.  Below is the front of the flier I designed earlier this morning.  I still have to design the back of the 6×9 card, but so far I am pretty pleased with how it has come out.

Web & graphic design was never the objective, but it’s what pays the bills when I am otherwise out of work (along with my wife working outside the home).  This way, we both can make some income and not pay a daycare service.  If we had to do that, we’d be deeper in debt and not have the time we currently get to spend with our son, Aidan.  Soon, though there will be two.

Another little one is on the way, so I’ve been trying to up the number of websites I build and host on a regular basis for people.  Hopefully, if I get enough (around 10 more) sites, I will be able to tell my wife that she doesn’t have to work outside the home anymore which in turn will free me up more to do more design work.

But that is still plan B.  My heart is in Christian Ministry.  I’ve applied at a few more churches looking for a full-time opportunity.  But if that doesn’t pan out, I guess I’ll just get more involved where I am at now.  (See link to the right – in the sidebar)

More often than not, my plan b sometimes is God’s plan a.

What would have happened if Gizmodo had just given it back to Apple?

If you’ve checked the tech blogs lately, they’ve been buzzing about a next generation iphone that came to light after an Apple employee lost the prototype at a bar.  Tech blog, Gizmodo apparently bought the device for $10,000 to take it apart and break the news on it for the sake of a few advertising dollars and a spotlight for a few days on the other tech blogs.

It’s an issue of morality & integrity that I think is unfortunately lost on a lot of our culture.  Apparently Gizmodo is also on the bandwagon of moral degradation too.  But I am curious what would have happened if Gizmodo had just given the device back to Apple instead of knowingly purchase stolen property to exploit?

Now, I have a lot of respect for Apple over their decision to ban porn applications on their app store.  A decision that I think actually embodies the philosophy of Google’s to “not be evil” better than Google has done themselves.  In this they have proven a moral stronghold when they could have easily chosen otherwise.

Bridges torn down instead of built up.

I am not sure what would have actually happened if Gizmodo had just given the device back, but I am sure that bridges would have been been built instead of torn down.  Now you have Cupertino upset over the issue.  Not because their device was leaked, but because of the lack of respect that has been shown them on behalf of the tech blogs in the face of the massive security measures usually taken by Apple to keep things under wraps till a launch date or press conference.

I will admit I am an idealist.  I think a person or company should be respected in regards to information like this.

If the device had been given back, Apple would have taken notice.  I do not think that they would have been left out in the cold either when the device was actually launched.  Apple likes to do things differently which is well-known.  An uncommon company like them would have also probably been uncommonly grateful as well.

Meet the Press.

Gizmodo hasn’t always been the giant tech blog that it is today.  Now it sits in the ranks of TechCrunch, Engadget and Lifehacker with millions of page views every month.  But Gizmodo has made it clear that they are the same caliber of journalists that made us hate printed media, blood-sucking journalists that are out to exploit anyone and anything for the bottom line.  Of course that’s what makes the page views.  That’s what pulls in the advertising dollars.  That’s how you make a name for yourself.  Exploitation.

It’s also why Gizmodo has been deleted from my feedreader as of late as well as other blogs that have done the same thing.

There are a lot of news organizations out there.  There are some really good tech blogs that I still enjoy reading, ones that haven’t “sold out” to get ahead of the game through buying stolen property.  I hope Apple shows grace to you.  I hope forgiveness is a part of their language.  The fact that this was a knowingly unreleased product, any judge in their right mind would rule in their favor, regardless of whether a police report was filed or not.

Updates… Mid April.

We’ve been able to get out of town for a few days this week.  It’s been a welcome change.  Besides it’s nice to see family we haven’t seen for awhile.

Keep our family in prayer over the next few weeks.  I am waiting to hear about a potential job with a church.  I won’t say where or anything yet, but in my opinion, it looks like a promising opportunity.

More than anything though, is that we are where God wants us to be.  Right now we are really enjoying the church we are at right now.  They have been a great family of people we’ve come to love.  With a growing family and all, it is time to find something full-time for me again.   Hopefully, it is doing what I love to do in ministry and what God wants me to do.  In this, the prayer is for God’s guidance to lead us where He wants us.

Can “struggle” be separate from “sin”?

I’ve been dealing with this a lot lately.  More so because it’s come up in media with different individuals who have declared they are gay or lesbian and still call themselves Christians.

Over the years I’ve struggled with the sin of anger in my life.  I’ve never came out to say that I am an “Angry Person” and just expected people to embrace my anger as a part of who I am.  It would be ludicrous to think that just because I struggle with an issue that I need to define myself by that particular sin and label myself accordingly.  God’s word says anger does not bring about the righteous life that God desires (James 1:19-21).  Sure I can try to justify it and say that “God made me this way” but the truth of it is that it’s my own selfish desires that cause me to be angry.

God’s word is pretty clear on God’s stance on homosexuality.  It is clear that homosexuality is sin according to God’s word.

But, I am not here to argue that point.  Can someone legitimately struggle with homosexuality just as much as one struggles with pornography or a gambling addiction?  I think the answer is yes.  But just as you wouldn’t hold a person up who is an excessive unrepentant alcoholic and present them as a leader, you also can’t in good faith say that a homosexual is fit to be placed in authority in the Church.  The two things don’t mix.  Light and dark cannot coexist.

Now that probably sounds harsh.  I know.  You don’t say those things today in our culture.

So what is the place of person who refuses to acknowledge sin as being sin?

  • To be welcome as a participant, but not a leader.  (Worship)
  • To be loved and built up in the knowledge of Christ as a brother or sister.  (Fellowship)
  • To be spoken to forthrightly about the sin in their lives in love.  (Accountability)
  • To have an understanding that they are choosing to be in the midst of those who believe that God’s word is authoritative and that sin will be confronted wherever it is found.  (Teaching)
  • If they chose to assert their will over that of God’s word openly for the purpose of inciting others, they will be asked to leave because God has called us to live in peace.  (Discipleship)

What is the place of the person who struggles against the sin in their lives and fights against it?

  • To be welcome as a participant, and depending on the influence and nature of the particular sin, serve as a leader.  (Worship)
  • To be loved and built up in the knowledge of Christ as a brother or sister.  (Fellowship)
  • To be spoken to forthrightly about the sin in their lives in love.
  • To have an understanding that they are choosing to be in the midst of those who believe that God’s word is authoritative and that sin will be confronted wherever it is found.
  • If they chose to assert their will over that of God’s word openly for the purpose of inciting others, they will be asked to leave because God has called us to live in peace.

Did you notice anything?  Only the first of the points was any different.  Let me throw one more category in here.

What is the place of the person who says they have no sin in their lives?

  • To be welcome as a participant, but not a leader.  (Worship)

Yes, it’s the same as the first category.  The other four areas are the same too…

  • To be loved and built up in the knowledge of Christ as a brother or sister.  (Fellowship)
  • To be spoken to forthrightly about the sin in their lives in love.  (Accountability)
  • To have an understanding that they are choosing to be in the midst of those who believe that God’s word is authoritative and that sin will be confronted wherever it is found.  (Teaching)
  • If they chose to assert their will over that of God’s word openly for the purpose of inciting others, they will be asked to leave because God has called us to live in peace.  (Discipleship)

So what is the difference?

Pride and Humility.  The unrepentant sinner refuses God’s will and so their pride keeps them from being in relationship with God.  To them, they have set themselves up as a God in their own eyes.  They are not fit to be a leader.  The ones who say they have no sin in their lives are fooling themselves and living in the delusion that they determine what is right or wrong.  The one who struggles against sin is the only one who acknowledges that they are indeed in need of the forgiveness and grace offered by Jesus Christ.  This is the only person who is capable of repentance.  Both of the other categories much first reach the place where they have acknowledged sin in their lives before they can come to this place.

  • Sin is defined by God.  We all do sin.  If you are struggling against sin in your life you have come to the place where you know you are fallible and are in need of God in your life.  In short, you are where God wants you to be so He can change you from the inside out.
  • If you have labeled yourself by your sin, you are in need of healing that God can provide.
  • If you say you have no sin, then you are delusional and in need of healing as well.
  • A Primer Course on Imagining Heaven.

    There is this song that says “Imagine there’s no Heaven, it’s easy if you try”.  I find imagining that there is no Heaven incredibly hard because our imaginations are tied into the very fabric of Heaven itself.

    We humans do have this incredible imagination.  It’s a creative part of ourselves that lingers on the things that cannot be in this world.  From day to day I think we tend to think too small.  We think “if only” or “what if” about the things that we see around us.  These are merely daydreams that are entirely possible, though maybe absurdly outside rational thought.  We tease ourselves with winning the lottery or some rich relative that could die when it comes to money.  We think about how we could benefit from a billion other endeavors without doing a thing.  Maybe some of us even think about professional advancement in some way.

    Amazing and wonderful some of these things may be they are still small-minded when it comes to the gifts of heaven & eternal life through the forgiveness of sins.

    We got into a discussion this last week at Bible Study about what Heaven would be like.  How could we even hope to understand it?  Jesus Christ will be there with the Father and the Spirit.  We will be in fellowship with the creator of all of it.  We know that.  But what will it look like?  How will we interact on a regular basis in so vast a place as Heaven, a “paradise” as Jesus put it to the thief on the cross?  I have a few ideas.

    Our imaginations will be set free beyond ourselves.

    As a creative guy myself, I find this thought completely freeing.  Often, I get caught up in pleasing others for the sake of myself or even just pleasing myself.  I aim to please God, but often I end up settling lower than where I feel the work needs to be.  When it comes to Heaven, we will have no audience but God.  Yes, you too can be the ultimate kazoo player in the worship band of Heaven (or at least one of the bands).  I am convinced that the surest proof that Heaven truly exists is that we have imaginations that God has given us to procure an idea about what Heaven could be, then blow us away with the reality someday.  Why?  Because, I think He likes to really make us happy.  If the mere thought of Heaven and what it could be thrills you, then I think that you will be more than pleasantly surprised when you do get there.

    Adventure.

    I tend to be the kind of guy that like to look behind closed doors.  I am naturally curious.  Often, I think God put huge bones in the ground not because large dinosaurs once roamed the earth, but because it thrills us to find and imagine what it could mean.  I enjoy looking under rocks and finding things that I didn’t know where there.  I live in central Ohio where large earthworks were once built by the Native Americans that once lived here.  It is amazing to think an ancient culture once lived here.  I think that it is pretty amazing to think that people once lived, worked and loved where we are today and they built something that has lasted the test of time to get to our age and invoke such curiosity in us today.

    I think we will find in Heaven an adventure that never ends.  We will find strange stars to look at and navigate across oceans large enough to swallow the sun whole.  Though some will argue that animals won’t be in Heaven, even the book of Revelations talks about strange beasts.  I think we will find those there too.  Yet we will not fear them.  In the presence of the author of Life itself, death itself will not be present.  In the absence of fear we will conquer the most wild of the beasts and sit around a bonfire on a sand strewn beach gazing at the Heavens retelling the story as we feast on the meat and fruit of the land.  Not out of wanton hunger, but because of a hunger for more of the life freely given.  I don’t know what I will do when I get to Heaven, but at some point you will find me on the prow of a ship, my face set toward the vast horizon with the wind blowing in my hair, eyes set on the setting sun while I think on what it will be like to sail into that golden bliss and harbor in the New Jerusalem with a tale to tell of the adventures that befell me on the unnamed islands of the great seas of that place.

    Beauty & Love.

    From what we can tell of scripture.  We won’t be married in Heaven.  We’ll all be free to be in perfect harmony with God and all of His creations.  Can you imagine just being in love with everyone?  For women, every man your lover or brother without jealousy or animosity.  For men, every woman your wife or sister you love dearly.  I’m not talking about sex either.  There is an intimacy that goes beyond sex or mere fancy.  We will be free to experience that with everyone in perfect unity with the one who made it all possible.

    When it comes to beauty…  have you ever looked at a painting or a work of art that you always saw something new in?  Maybe a melody that you could listen to countless times and still hear a new note?  We see glimpses of that beauty here.  The way the clouds move or the way the filtered light casts a wonderful silent pale light right before a storm.  I think of all things, I will like the storms in Heaven.  To dance across the fields in wild abandon while lightning flashes about me… the thought even fills my heart with joy to think about it.  No harm could befall me.  The idea of experiencing all of nature as it was meant to be experienced without fear or consequence other than endless joy makes me smile even now to think about.  That is how beauty is meant to be experienced.  With both hands, grabbed up and immeasurably poured out, splashed about and yes, played in.

    Then there is God.

    I love the way C.S. Lewis talks about Aslan in the Chronicles of Narnia, and I know I can’t do it justice without the actual experience, but I should hope to meet Christ first when I get to Heaven.  To fall in those arms that stretched out and died on a Roman cross in the history of man, to embrace the one who embraced all that condemned me to death seems more than incredible.  The Lion, the Lamb, the King on His throne, the Jewish carpenter, the Man, we will see Him.  I could talk forever about how the place of Heaven fills me with incredible visions of what it will be, but one thing that I have trouble imagining is the meeting between the fallen creation that I am, and the God of all creation who took my place because He loved me that much.  For some reason, I think this will be one of those things that happens privately in Heaven.  I mean why not?  You have all eternity and God could do whatever He pleases anyway.  But a moment with the One where He gives you a new name and calls you His own is immeasurable.  The greatest thing about it is that from then on, He is with you.  The friend closer than any other.  To go with the artist of it all and experience the fullness of all of Heaven with God Himself  is the pinnacle of it all.

    Conclusion.

    Heaven is more than just a thought.  It is a place, a paradise in every way.  Imagination exists because Heaven exists.  While here on this earth, imagination is limited, but what will happen when it’s set free?  Think about this.  When our imagination is set free and we can come up with things we never thought, Heaven will still be greater than those thoughts and still surprise with the splendor that will exist for us to experience.  When you begin to understand it from this perspective, when Jesus says He is the only way to get there, it doesn’t sound exclusive anymore.  Giving up my will for this abundant, beautiful existence is really just exchanging rags for all the riches this world can offer.  When we welcome Christ into our hearts to be our savior, we are handing ourselves over and saying “do what you will, I am yours”.   The amazing thing is that He takes it and hands us ourselves back, set free from the chains of sin.  He takes us, and gives us our true selves.  If you think about it, you are giving the creator back His creation that fell of it’s own accord and somehow became broke… back to the creator who fixes it better than it was in the first place.  When you surrender yourself, you become more yourself and more fit to experience the place that awaits you on the other side.

    Ikea and iPad Faith

    I am wanting an iPad. I’m saving up for a 3G iPad actually. Something I could actually use anywhere rather than just near a wi-fi network. But what has intrigued me most about the iPad is the same reason we have as a culture seemingly fallen in love with Ikea & minimalistic ideas. Simple ideas that really change the way we function on a daily basis. It’s not that things are just simple in form. It’s that there is a ton of thought behind it that makes it function like a well-oiled machine. Simplistic ideas thought out with the utmost care to detail and the way it will be used.

    I recently took apart my wife’s iPod touch to fix a cracked screen and got a first hand look at the inside of one of these devices. There’s a lot crammed into one of these little electronic wonders. You can tell there is a design that caters to a specific purpose. I could go on here about how evolution looks at something much more unique than an iPod touch, the human body and supposes that it just sprang up over millennium, but an iPod touch could not just come together over time on it’s own. Then it becomes an iPad overnight. But here is the point. A lot of thought went into these devices and furniture. This for us is like doctrine and theology. It is the innards of the faith that we come to appreciate from the way that it functions outwardly.

    Not everyone sees the insides of the faith if they don’t take the time to look. But it’s there. It is reflected in our thoughts, the way we love, the way we worship and relate to God and His creation. It may look simple on the outside, but it’s deeper than that. Now if only our faith got a cool graphics display and touchscreen functionality!

    The New Atheism & Christianity

    First off, it’s not really new.  It’s a new way of saying the same old thing.  It’s a new way of excusing pride & selfishness for rational thought.  The very term “atheism” asserts that not only do they already believe that there is no God, but that by labeling themselves as such they also do not want evidence to the contrary of their belief system.   It’s the finality of the term “atheist” that concerns me.  No other label denotes such hopelessness, closed mindedness and pride than “atheist”.  One who has determined in their heart that there is no God and defines themselves as such.   But, many atheists are closer to knowing God than many so-called Christians.

    Many so-called Christians want to fight it out with the atheists about if there is a God, historical data, and silly philosophical questions.  The best way to fight atheism isn’t knowledge.  It isn’t knowing more historical data.  It isn’t even having the answers to the fossil record that neither Christian nor Atheist can explain in full.  It’s in how we love.

    If we truly love, the fighting won’t matter.  It will be seen.  If we love the atheists that try so hard to convince us that there is no God, we nullify the very argument through genuine compassion, real prayer and a life lived in the Spirit.

    Today, there are Christians who are fed up “with the institution of the church”.  Sure they phrase it all sorts of ways.  Really, it’s a cop out.  They are fed up with people who play at being the church and excluding the very people they need to be showing love to.  Don’t get me wrong.  A life that is actively being lived in sin has no place within church leadership.  But we all fall short of God’s perfect will.  We all sin.  Yes, Christians sin.  It’s the belief in Christ forgiveness of our sins that we find grace.

    So my encouragement is yes, steep yourself in the knowledge.  Study science.  Study biology.  Study philosophy.  The church has long neglected the sciences and arts because of those who use it for evil.  But inquiry is made not just for knowledge.  It is made for the affirmation of faith.  But don’t use the weapons of knowledge against the ones who have made up their mind already.  Knowledge without faith is merely looking at the creation and refusing to aknowledge a creator.  Only half of the puzzle makes any sense at all.  If you turn it around and look at science, history, sociology, philosophy from the perspective of realizing that God is, that He exists and is active within His creation, all of creation will speak… nay, sing of His wonder