Category Archives: Faith

The Exit Interview.

Right now I am sitting in my favorite local coffeeshop for what may be one of the last times.  I used to work at this coffeeshop and open up on Monday mornings at 5am.  Granted, at the time I needed the extra money to provide for my family, but I still enjoyed the people, all the free coffee I could drink (when you open the store by baking pastries at 5am you need that coffee) and the employee discount.  I even ended up building the website for them (for which I apparently got a lifetime employee discount which I only employ occasionally).

Today, I am just enjoying the quiet while I write and think a little bit.  The next few weeks are going to be a radical shift for my family and I.  I’ve never done a long-distance move before.  I’ve contemplated it when I interviewed at churches in Lake Havasu, AZ and Kalispell, MT & sent a resume out to Juneau, AK.  As you can tell probably, Becca & I are really excited about the move.

There is a bittersweet part of moving in all of it too.  We had gotten pretty close to our church family at Narrow Road Community Church.  I mean, they knew we were looking for where God would take us since we first started attending there.  I had mentioned it in prayer enough while I was frustrated with the job search (which was often).  They knew also that it was wearing on us considering Becca being pregnant and also the primary provider for our family financially.  But we love these people.  We had gotten involved in numerous ways (not as much as we wanted even) and really felt loved.  They have in many ways become family to us.

I know there are problems in every church, but being at Narrow Road Community Church has been one of the best experiences I’ve ever had with a church… warts and all.  We have been blessed beyond measure, prayed for, lifted up emotionally & spiritually and invested into while being a part of the family there.  There’s been way more opportunity to get connected with the church family that I’ve never been able to take advantage of.  More ways to serve than you could shake a stick at.  I can honestly say that no one in that church feels like they are left out feeling that they don’t know how they can get involved.  If they do, it’s their own fault.  Now I know not every church is destined to be a mega-church.  I had never understood that till I came to Narrow Road.  Some churches are meant to be small.  Small is what they do best.  A congregation can be cared for adequately.  People can grow together in ways they just can’t in a big church.  The pastors (both of them) excite in me a passion for preaching the Word, really caring about people, and just being around them you know you are loved and cared for yourself.  I don’t know if Narrow Road is destined to be a large church, but I can say they do small really well and I think they would do large well too.

I am not belittling the lessons I’ve learned elsewhere before coming to Narrow Road as a burned out (probably mostly my own fault) recent Associate Pastor from another local church, but here is where I’ve been re-ignited, reforged, and set aflame with passion again.  Narrow Road has been a refuge for me and a place of renewing for both Becca & I.  I hope in the future I can maintain the relationships I’ve found at Narrow Road and bridges can be built in the Kingdom of God for God’s Word to be spread all the more because of it.

Franklin, KY – Here we Come!

I am feeling awesome today.  Even healthwise as the gallstone finally passed (I know, TMI but it’s relevant for those who were wondering about my most recent health status).  I think some of the stress of the prolonged job hunt is starting to fall off too.  Oh, I guess I didn’t announce that here yet.  In fact I don’t think I announced a few things.  Like where we are expecting a new baby by December (of which we are about 80% sure is a girl, but waiting on a second ultrasound to confirm).  But in other news in the Lehman household….

I got a job!

But job sounds like something you do for money as in “selling out”.  I prefer the term “position” because it sounds more like the way I view it.  Doing something you love while getting paid and being able to provide for your family doing it.  So what does this mean for the immediate future.  Well, we are moving for one.  Right now the moving is scrounging around for moving boxes and trying to pack while looking for a place to live.

So now for the details.  The church is Franklin First United Methodist Church in Franklin, KY.  This means we are moving in the next few weeks.  Becca is really excited as it means going back south.  Kentucky is her home state and as she’s lived pretty much all over western Kentucky, she counts the whole state as “hometown” for the most part.  We will be about an hour away from Mammoth Caves, 45 minutes away from Nashville, 30 minutes or less from Bowling Green.  I will be the Youth & Young Adults Pastor at the church Full-time & Becca will get to be a stay-at-home mom (which is what she wants to do).  She is also probably going to start writing on her site a lot more, www.motherhoodfordummies.com.

Now, the only thing I’ll be worried about is the fact that I’m going to be working with this guy below as he is the pastor at the church I’m going to.  He’s the one on the right.

See I didn’t realize the underlying Jewish Rabbi Cult that has permeated the United Methodist Church.  The fact that he has Henna Art on his hand along with painted fingernails.  I will assume that this image is of some strange new age Jewish wedding or “The Night of the Henna”.  Looking at Wikipedia I find: (via this link under the section for “Traditions of Henna as body Art”)

The Night of the Henna was celebrated by most groups in the areas where henna grew naturally: Jews,[11] Muslims,[12] Hindus, Christians and Zoroastrians, among others, all celebrated marriages by adorning the bride, and often the groom, with henna.

A Great Faith in a Great God who does Great Things

Above is the graphic I put together for this coming Sunday at Narrow Road Community Church.  It’s mainly what I’ve been working on this afternoon.  This morning I had the site down for a little bit as I did some database work finalizing the changes from the old domain name to the new domain name.  Old images with the old url were not showing up because the urls were embedded in the content.  I finally figured it out and got the site running again, but it was a bit of a frustrating process to figure out.

But if you aren’t doing anything on Sunday and you live in the area, we’d love to have you join us.  Check out the post on the church website for more info.

It all hinges on faith.

I was quite challenged by the message today.  I’ll post the Audio of the sermon on the church website when they get it to me and link to it ( link goes here).

To tell the truth I look forward to listening to it again myself… but I’ll try to sum up what I got out of the sermon today that challenged me.

  • It’s the overflow of our faith which is the outpouring of worship.
  • Faith gives it’s best.
  • Faith is how we know we are saved.
  • Faith calls us to do things that look strange to others who don’t have faith.

I am sure I am not quite getting all the points that were listed, but what it comes down to is this.  Everything in the Christian life comes down to an issue of faith.  From what we give of our time, ourselves and our income to how we live on a daily basis.  Without faith, it’s just words and works.  Neither of which will save us.  Faith is how we understand.  Not knowledge.  Not more study.  More faith.

I have a friend who likes to study things and devise theories on how God works.  But he is quite lost.  I don’t think he knows it either.  He knows a lot of God.  He is a pastor even.  But deep down it seems he has pushed faith aside for ideologies, philosophies, and mere spirituality.

I am challenged by this because it means that all the Bible Study in the world won’t get me closer to God unless it comes from a genuine faith that God will meet me when I come to Him.

I find that a scary proposition actually, but also quite freeing.  Faith must come first.

Hebrews 11, Genesis 4

Surrender

Sometimes I wish I had lived as a monk in the early Catholic church. The idea of penance seems easier than that of forgiveness at times. Probably because it’s something that I have to do. It’s something that I could take into my own hands and perform at will. Even the idea of going into a confessional booth and sharing my sins with some guy with a white collar seems easier than kneeling in total supplication to the Creator of the universe. In the Old Testament, the priest could go on your behalf before God. Buying a goat and taking it to the temple doesn’t seem hard either. But when the veil is torn and there is nothing between God and me but my sin… it makes my sin the culprit, but not just my sin, me. Our will is what separates us from God.
Then Jesus goes and takes all that sin upon Himself. Those thoughts I am so ashamed of thinking, those images that are burned in my brain, those words that I can’t take back all belong to the blameless spotless lamb of God. God took Himself and was made manifest in flesh for us and allowed us to take the very standard of perfection and drown it in the filth and mire of our deliberate disobedience of His will.

His will.

Our will.

That’s all it really comes down to. So when we pray those words “Not my will, but thine… on earth as it is in Heaven” is a prayer that encompasses the heart of repentance. To turn away and become infatuated with what God’s will is rather than our own. This is the great denial. This is the catch. This is where we die and Christ lives…

…if we let Him.

The Journal

If I were to die today, I feel that most of my life might have been in vain. I am ashamed to say that if I were to stand before God’s throne right now I would have no other thought other than I did not live a life worthy of the name of Jesus Christ. This isn’t how I want to go out though. I don’t want to stand before God with the knowledge that I could have done more but didn’t.  I know that there are a lot of other Christians “out there” who feel the same way and want more.

So I am beginning something new. I don’t want to be the same old me anymore. “Me” doesn’t work. God does.

Part of the point of this is complete brutal honesty about where I am and where God takes me over the course of the next six months. Maybe this journey can be helpful to someone else too. I know that I am led to begin the adventure to real transformation and for now that is my only goal. To be transformed by a real and authentic relationship with Jesus Christ.

The greatest gift you can give to the world is your own intimacy with Jesus Christ.

Plan B: Digging In and Branching Out

I’ve been busy today working on a client/friend’s website and some marketing materials.  Below is the front of the flier I designed earlier this morning.  I still have to design the back of the 6×9 card, but so far I am pretty pleased with how it has come out.

Web & graphic design was never the objective, but it’s what pays the bills when I am otherwise out of work (along with my wife working outside the home).  This way, we both can make some income and not pay a daycare service.  If we had to do that, we’d be deeper in debt and not have the time we currently get to spend with our son, Aidan.  Soon, though there will be two.

Another little one is on the way, so I’ve been trying to up the number of websites I build and host on a regular basis for people.  Hopefully, if I get enough (around 10 more) sites, I will be able to tell my wife that she doesn’t have to work outside the home anymore which in turn will free me up more to do more design work.

But that is still plan B.  My heart is in Christian Ministry.  I’ve applied at a few more churches looking for a full-time opportunity.  But if that doesn’t pan out, I guess I’ll just get more involved where I am at now.  (See link to the right – in the sidebar)

More often than not, my plan b sometimes is God’s plan a.

Can “struggle” be separate from “sin”?

I’ve been dealing with this a lot lately.  More so because it’s come up in media with different individuals who have declared they are gay or lesbian and still call themselves Christians.

Over the years I’ve struggled with the sin of anger in my life.  I’ve never came out to say that I am an “Angry Person” and just expected people to embrace my anger as a part of who I am.  It would be ludicrous to think that just because I struggle with an issue that I need to define myself by that particular sin and label myself accordingly.  God’s word says anger does not bring about the righteous life that God desires (James 1:19-21).  Sure I can try to justify it and say that “God made me this way” but the truth of it is that it’s my own selfish desires that cause me to be angry.

God’s word is pretty clear on God’s stance on homosexuality.  It is clear that homosexuality is sin according to God’s word.

But, I am not here to argue that point.  Can someone legitimately struggle with homosexuality just as much as one struggles with pornography or a gambling addiction?  I think the answer is yes.  But just as you wouldn’t hold a person up who is an excessive unrepentant alcoholic and present them as a leader, you also can’t in good faith say that a homosexual is fit to be placed in authority in the Church.  The two things don’t mix.  Light and dark cannot coexist.

Now that probably sounds harsh.  I know.  You don’t say those things today in our culture.

So what is the place of person who refuses to acknowledge sin as being sin?

  • To be welcome as a participant, but not a leader.  (Worship)
  • To be loved and built up in the knowledge of Christ as a brother or sister.  (Fellowship)
  • To be spoken to forthrightly about the sin in their lives in love.  (Accountability)
  • To have an understanding that they are choosing to be in the midst of those who believe that God’s word is authoritative and that sin will be confronted wherever it is found.  (Teaching)
  • If they chose to assert their will over that of God’s word openly for the purpose of inciting others, they will be asked to leave because God has called us to live in peace.  (Discipleship)

What is the place of the person who struggles against the sin in their lives and fights against it?

  • To be welcome as a participant, and depending on the influence and nature of the particular sin, serve as a leader.  (Worship)
  • To be loved and built up in the knowledge of Christ as a brother or sister.  (Fellowship)
  • To be spoken to forthrightly about the sin in their lives in love.
  • To have an understanding that they are choosing to be in the midst of those who believe that God’s word is authoritative and that sin will be confronted wherever it is found.
  • If they chose to assert their will over that of God’s word openly for the purpose of inciting others, they will be asked to leave because God has called us to live in peace.

Did you notice anything?  Only the first of the points was any different.  Let me throw one more category in here.

What is the place of the person who says they have no sin in their lives?

  • To be welcome as a participant, but not a leader.  (Worship)

Yes, it’s the same as the first category.  The other four areas are the same too…

  • To be loved and built up in the knowledge of Christ as a brother or sister.  (Fellowship)
  • To be spoken to forthrightly about the sin in their lives in love.  (Accountability)
  • To have an understanding that they are choosing to be in the midst of those who believe that God’s word is authoritative and that sin will be confronted wherever it is found.  (Teaching)
  • If they chose to assert their will over that of God’s word openly for the purpose of inciting others, they will be asked to leave because God has called us to live in peace.  (Discipleship)

So what is the difference?

Pride and Humility.  The unrepentant sinner refuses God’s will and so their pride keeps them from being in relationship with God.  To them, they have set themselves up as a God in their own eyes.  They are not fit to be a leader.  The ones who say they have no sin in their lives are fooling themselves and living in the delusion that they determine what is right or wrong.  The one who struggles against sin is the only one who acknowledges that they are indeed in need of the forgiveness and grace offered by Jesus Christ.  This is the only person who is capable of repentance.  Both of the other categories much first reach the place where they have acknowledged sin in their lives before they can come to this place.

  • Sin is defined by God.  We all do sin.  If you are struggling against sin in your life you have come to the place where you know you are fallible and are in need of God in your life.  In short, you are where God wants you to be so He can change you from the inside out.
  • If you have labeled yourself by your sin, you are in need of healing that God can provide.
  • If you say you have no sin, then you are delusional and in need of healing as well.
  • A Primer Course on Imagining Heaven.

    There is this song that says “Imagine there’s no Heaven, it’s easy if you try”.  I find imagining that there is no Heaven incredibly hard because our imaginations are tied into the very fabric of Heaven itself.

    We humans do have this incredible imagination.  It’s a creative part of ourselves that lingers on the things that cannot be in this world.  From day to day I think we tend to think too small.  We think “if only” or “what if” about the things that we see around us.  These are merely daydreams that are entirely possible, though maybe absurdly outside rational thought.  We tease ourselves with winning the lottery or some rich relative that could die when it comes to money.  We think about how we could benefit from a billion other endeavors without doing a thing.  Maybe some of us even think about professional advancement in some way.

    Amazing and wonderful some of these things may be they are still small-minded when it comes to the gifts of heaven & eternal life through the forgiveness of sins.

    We got into a discussion this last week at Bible Study about what Heaven would be like.  How could we even hope to understand it?  Jesus Christ will be there with the Father and the Spirit.  We will be in fellowship with the creator of all of it.  We know that.  But what will it look like?  How will we interact on a regular basis in so vast a place as Heaven, a “paradise” as Jesus put it to the thief on the cross?  I have a few ideas.

    Our imaginations will be set free beyond ourselves.

    As a creative guy myself, I find this thought completely freeing.  Often, I get caught up in pleasing others for the sake of myself or even just pleasing myself.  I aim to please God, but often I end up settling lower than where I feel the work needs to be.  When it comes to Heaven, we will have no audience but God.  Yes, you too can be the ultimate kazoo player in the worship band of Heaven (or at least one of the bands).  I am convinced that the surest proof that Heaven truly exists is that we have imaginations that God has given us to procure an idea about what Heaven could be, then blow us away with the reality someday.  Why?  Because, I think He likes to really make us happy.  If the mere thought of Heaven and what it could be thrills you, then I think that you will be more than pleasantly surprised when you do get there.

    Adventure.

    I tend to be the kind of guy that like to look behind closed doors.  I am naturally curious.  Often, I think God put huge bones in the ground not because large dinosaurs once roamed the earth, but because it thrills us to find and imagine what it could mean.  I enjoy looking under rocks and finding things that I didn’t know where there.  I live in central Ohio where large earthworks were once built by the Native Americans that once lived here.  It is amazing to think an ancient culture once lived here.  I think that it is pretty amazing to think that people once lived, worked and loved where we are today and they built something that has lasted the test of time to get to our age and invoke such curiosity in us today.

    I think we will find in Heaven an adventure that never ends.  We will find strange stars to look at and navigate across oceans large enough to swallow the sun whole.  Though some will argue that animals won’t be in Heaven, even the book of Revelations talks about strange beasts.  I think we will find those there too.  Yet we will not fear them.  In the presence of the author of Life itself, death itself will not be present.  In the absence of fear we will conquer the most wild of the beasts and sit around a bonfire on a sand strewn beach gazing at the Heavens retelling the story as we feast on the meat and fruit of the land.  Not out of wanton hunger, but because of a hunger for more of the life freely given.  I don’t know what I will do when I get to Heaven, but at some point you will find me on the prow of a ship, my face set toward the vast horizon with the wind blowing in my hair, eyes set on the setting sun while I think on what it will be like to sail into that golden bliss and harbor in the New Jerusalem with a tale to tell of the adventures that befell me on the unnamed islands of the great seas of that place.

    Beauty & Love.

    From what we can tell of scripture.  We won’t be married in Heaven.  We’ll all be free to be in perfect harmony with God and all of His creations.  Can you imagine just being in love with everyone?  For women, every man your lover or brother without jealousy or animosity.  For men, every woman your wife or sister you love dearly.  I’m not talking about sex either.  There is an intimacy that goes beyond sex or mere fancy.  We will be free to experience that with everyone in perfect unity with the one who made it all possible.

    When it comes to beauty…  have you ever looked at a painting or a work of art that you always saw something new in?  Maybe a melody that you could listen to countless times and still hear a new note?  We see glimpses of that beauty here.  The way the clouds move or the way the filtered light casts a wonderful silent pale light right before a storm.  I think of all things, I will like the storms in Heaven.  To dance across the fields in wild abandon while lightning flashes about me… the thought even fills my heart with joy to think about it.  No harm could befall me.  The idea of experiencing all of nature as it was meant to be experienced without fear or consequence other than endless joy makes me smile even now to think about.  That is how beauty is meant to be experienced.  With both hands, grabbed up and immeasurably poured out, splashed about and yes, played in.

    Then there is God.

    I love the way C.S. Lewis talks about Aslan in the Chronicles of Narnia, and I know I can’t do it justice without the actual experience, but I should hope to meet Christ first when I get to Heaven.  To fall in those arms that stretched out and died on a Roman cross in the history of man, to embrace the one who embraced all that condemned me to death seems more than incredible.  The Lion, the Lamb, the King on His throne, the Jewish carpenter, the Man, we will see Him.  I could talk forever about how the place of Heaven fills me with incredible visions of what it will be, but one thing that I have trouble imagining is the meeting between the fallen creation that I am, and the God of all creation who took my place because He loved me that much.  For some reason, I think this will be one of those things that happens privately in Heaven.  I mean why not?  You have all eternity and God could do whatever He pleases anyway.  But a moment with the One where He gives you a new name and calls you His own is immeasurable.  The greatest thing about it is that from then on, He is with you.  The friend closer than any other.  To go with the artist of it all and experience the fullness of all of Heaven with God Himself  is the pinnacle of it all.

    Conclusion.

    Heaven is more than just a thought.  It is a place, a paradise in every way.  Imagination exists because Heaven exists.  While here on this earth, imagination is limited, but what will happen when it’s set free?  Think about this.  When our imagination is set free and we can come up with things we never thought, Heaven will still be greater than those thoughts and still surprise with the splendor that will exist for us to experience.  When you begin to understand it from this perspective, when Jesus says He is the only way to get there, it doesn’t sound exclusive anymore.  Giving up my will for this abundant, beautiful existence is really just exchanging rags for all the riches this world can offer.  When we welcome Christ into our hearts to be our savior, we are handing ourselves over and saying “do what you will, I am yours”.   The amazing thing is that He takes it and hands us ourselves back, set free from the chains of sin.  He takes us, and gives us our true selves.  If you think about it, you are giving the creator back His creation that fell of it’s own accord and somehow became broke… back to the creator who fixes it better than it was in the first place.  When you surrender yourself, you become more yourself and more fit to experience the place that awaits you on the other side.

    Ikea and iPad Faith

    I am wanting an iPad. I’m saving up for a 3G iPad actually. Something I could actually use anywhere rather than just near a wi-fi network. But what has intrigued me most about the iPad is the same reason we have as a culture seemingly fallen in love with Ikea & minimalistic ideas. Simple ideas that really change the way we function on a daily basis. It’s not that things are just simple in form. It’s that there is a ton of thought behind it that makes it function like a well-oiled machine. Simplistic ideas thought out with the utmost care to detail and the way it will be used.

    I recently took apart my wife’s iPod touch to fix a cracked screen and got a first hand look at the inside of one of these devices. There’s a lot crammed into one of these little electronic wonders. You can tell there is a design that caters to a specific purpose. I could go on here about how evolution looks at something much more unique than an iPod touch, the human body and supposes that it just sprang up over millennium, but an iPod touch could not just come together over time on it’s own. Then it becomes an iPad overnight. But here is the point. A lot of thought went into these devices and furniture. This for us is like doctrine and theology. It is the innards of the faith that we come to appreciate from the way that it functions outwardly.

    Not everyone sees the insides of the faith if they don’t take the time to look. But it’s there. It is reflected in our thoughts, the way we love, the way we worship and relate to God and His creation. It may look simple on the outside, but it’s deeper than that. Now if only our faith got a cool graphics display and touchscreen functionality!