Often, I’ve been wondering where all the time has gone. There is an abundance of things that I wish I had done or think I should do next. It’s not because I feel that I need to have something to do but because lately I’ve been thinking about time. It’s short. I lookd at my small son today and realized that I will only have him a few short years till he turns 18 and will be out on his own. For now he is the four month old little baby who relies on me for his next meal. Everything I do or say will be seen by him and will shape him into the man he will become… is becoming. For now, I will hold him tight. Give him hugs, and play with him to try to keep him occuppied while his gums hurt while he teethes
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Lately, I’ve been unable to get to sleep. I have lain awake for hours while I wait to fall off to some dream. It hasn’t been coming. I get up and clean the house if only in some vain effort to keep myself occupied. Yesterday, I was laying in bed and my wife’s alamr clock went off. I hadn’t even been able to get to sleep yet. I got up and fed little Aidan and eventually fell asleep after Becca went to work. I guess you could say there is a certain amount of anxiety that may be keeping me from sleep. I really don’t know. It’s strange. I am exhausted but not sleepy. I know I need it.
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I’ve been looking at churches yet again. In fact I’ve been on so many job boards, I accidentally ran accross a job board script that was better than any of the job boards I was looking at. So I built two sites using it to maybe provide a great service to employers who are looking for new employees.
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I am looking forward to our trip this coming week to Arkansas. It will be the farthest south I’ve ever been. It will be good to finally meet Becca’s grandma. I guess we will be doing some painting while we are there too.
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I bought some medicine that is supposed to help you sleep. I took some when Becca went to bed. Apparently.. it’s starting to take hold. I need to go now. Sleep.
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I am listening to Pandora radio and a song just came on that I really like. Close my eyes and listen. Awfully relaxing.
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I think from now =\ on I should only write with my eyes closed like Stevie Wonder. playing the keyboard. I may have a bucnch of spelling errors, but I think I can imagine more about what I am writing if I have my eyes shut. Maybe I should always write while drifting off to sleep…………….
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song done. good night.
I hope you’ve been able to get some sleep. I know you were wanting to get on a regular sleep schedule. I also know, from personal experience (hello! my life right now!), how hard that can be. What medicine did you get? My generic Tylenol PM is my fall-back friend when I’m keyed up. My sleep’s biggest enemy is my cellphone – having a smartphone means having the Internet, which can captivate me all night long if I don’t shut it down and shut my eyes.